Here i am again.

 I found out that the lovely café in the neighbourhood of my school has free internet! So now i can keep up with everything.

I'm a bit moody today because i got my first selfmade scenario back and it wasn't that good. My teacher said i'm to poetic. Well, if the teachers i had at the University would've said that only once, i would've been filled with joy and happiness!  But i knew it would be to prosaic, it's hard to put all the things i learned before aside. 

I was a bit dissapointed with myself because i hate to miss my own goals. I really REALLY want to succeed in my documentary-thing. It's the only thing i know i can do the rest of my life. I was born as a curious, questioning person, eager to discover new things. 'Big zucht'

I'm busy thinking of my next project. My plan is to make a documentary about an authentic shoemaker and his father, who is also in the business. I know the teachers like the visual stuff, but it's sooooo hard to put my ego and my pigheadedness aside and just do what THEY want to get good notes. 

It's a psychological process, being a Filmschoolstudent!